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Hi August!!
Let be more peaceful and happy in this month.
This year July gave me a lot bad memories,
Damn suffering...
Headache.

Tired.
Sometime,
I feel that my grandma doesn't like me,
When the time I born,
They all hope I'm a baby boy,
Not a baby girl.
Even my name they also want to gave me a boy name,
Luckily my mum change it.

Yesterday,
She had broke my heart,
Ur words still around my mind,
I know,u got many things need to manage,
Got a lot of things had to do,had to think.
But,
Pls....don't talk to me like this,
I respect u,
Why u can't treat me well like u treat ur grandson?
Not me doesn't love u,
Is u always do any things broke my heart.
U let me feel that I'm not that important to u,
And let u upsetting on me. 
No one can let me hang on.
Disappointed = 1000++
Confidence = 0#

離別

一通電話,
改變了全部人,
原是笑著的臉,
開始有了變化,
眉頭皺了起來。

29.7.2013,星期一,中午
我可愛的叔叔離開了人間,
一句痛也沒喊過,
就這樣靜悄悄的走了,
當時是我接電話,
聽到這消息,我呆在那裏,
我還跟奶奶確認了兩次,
傻了,
我沒哭,
只是喊著媽咪,快！
我要回去！
多麽希望回到去不是冷冰冰的身體,
而是會對著我們笑,
而且喊我名字的叔叔...
希望破滅了,
樣子很安詳,
宛如只是睡著了一般,
躺在病床上...
爸爸的老板先我們一步抵達,
已經在誦經,阿彌陀佛...
念著經,看著叔叔的臉,
心都碎了,
離開的太突然,
還以為還有機會跟他一齊過中秋,
結果....
唉...
如果昨天沒有舉行什麽party的話,
我就可以看到他最後一面了....
我好後悔...

叔叔是騙子,
明明說過明年要幫我賣餅幹的,
我還要烤花生餅給你賣的啊...
為什麽爽約,
騙人的....
答應了我,
人卻逃掉了...

婆婆說不要哭,
奶奶也說不要哭,
不是不要而是不準,
那等你出殯了再哭,
總可以了吧...
我現在不上不下,
很亂...

Days

Jungle trekking.
Camping.
Like the time inside the plkn.
Went into the jungle,
Cook, fishing,play game,eat using hand...
Even that two days I'm so stress,
But feel like very comfortable n enjoy.
Now,
That moment already as past tense.
Missing the time stay inside there,
Damn miss.

Today evening,
Went to pasar malam,
But not Chinese one..Haha...
Mummy heard there got many yummy foods,
Bcos Malay buka puasa,
So no cook today,
And bring back a lot of dinner from there.
I want the roti,
But where is the stall? T.T
Nevermind,
Nasi lemak also very nice.
Haha...

Royal Villa.
Onew from SHINee is the main character,
Haha...happy happy,
This is a short comedy drama.
Laugh,the ghost so funny.
Air-cond=Ghost#

To be Me

Study.
Study.
Study.
What course is suitable for me?
sigh.
Tourism management?
Let me have deep think better.
Now is so confuse.
Confuse what?
Which college is better.
Worry Erican college fee is too expensive.
A lot trouble.

The driving lesson have no response.
I want drive a car.
Hahaha...

We just friend.
Maybe my eyes have been close up,
On that time,
On that moment,
On those days.
In this few weeks ago,
I have be more comfortable,
Without missing you,
But still heart attack when saw ur post.
Ha...
Fine.
It will be OK.

Purple color minion.
Sold out.
Minions.
Sold out.
I want purple color one.
I want monster.
Rawhhhh...ba...na na...
But all sold out.

Detective Conan,
Free!,
Bloody boy,
......n so else...
Everyday I'm watching anime at home.
Sigh.
Useless people in da house.

Present

I received a big big big present today.
That's my wish for this year...
But I ady give up.
Totally a surprise for me,
My aunt and cousin sis came to my house,
With a big Rilakkuma.
Damn.
Happy and surprise.
Till now still blur,
Is it real or I'm actually is dreaming.
Haha.
Anyway,
Thank you.
Especially my sis...
≧﹏≦

Cry

Stupid July...
Sad July..
Disappointed July..
F! U July..

第一次,第一次,
7 月過得那麽傷心.
我的叔叔病越來越嚴重.
今天媽咪回到去,
還聽到奶奶講他吐血.
呵呵,
時間快要到了.
可是我很開心,
因為他還記得我,記得鴻鴻.
3個叔叔,
興叔叔最疼我們.
還記得那時候我剛進營不久,
就得知他進院,
想見卻見不到的心是如此的痛苦,
每次跟媽咪通完電話都會哭,
我那時已經有了心裏準備.
還好,
假期時的他很健康,
也從醫院裏出來了,
可是卻瘦了一大半,
平時胖胖的叔叔,
在一個月裏不見了,
換來的是瘦瘦,病談談的人.
好啦,
等到我正式的出來了,
以為我會看見一個痊愈的叔叔,
結果,
我卻看到一個躺在病床上望著我,
用很微弱的聲音喊著我的名字的叔叔,
很傷心很傷心,
因為我沒給他做過任何事情,
看著他那麽的痛苦,
我卻幫不到他,
心很痛.
星期六幫他念經,
念著的時候很想哭,
我知道我們會失去他,
他也會離開我們,
我們的願只希望他能安安樂樂的走,
沒有任何牽掛,
沒有任何的痛苦.
世界上最痛苦的就是,
白發人,送黑發人,
我的奶奶是最痛苦的那個,
看著一個又一個的至親在面前消失,
是多麽的殘忍,痛苦.

Message

I know.
I should be more honest.
If not,
U will never know what I'm thinking.
Actually I should told u when we separate,
But I scared n braveless.
I'm not like u,
U are brave n confident.
Ur voice always around me,
Especially that night u call me,
Shock and don't know what should do.
And because of that call,
My heart is shaking...and lost.
Ok.
Fine.
At the end,
I miss you.
Damn miss.
親愛的,我愛你.