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Hi August!!
Let be more peaceful and happy in this month.
This year July gave me a lot bad memories,
Damn suffering...
Headache.

Tired.
Sometime,
I feel that my grandma doesn't like me,
When the time I born,
They all hope I'm a baby boy,
Not a baby girl.
Even my name they also want to gave me a boy name,
Luckily my mum change it.

Yesterday,
She had broke my heart,
Ur words still around my mind,
I know,u got many things need to manage,
Got a lot of things had to do,had to think.
But,
Pls....don't talk to me like this,
I respect u,
Why u can't treat me well like u treat ur grandson?
Not me doesn't love u,
Is u always do any things broke my heart.
U let me feel that I'm not that important to u,
And let u upsetting on me. 
No one can let me hang on.
Disappointed = 1000++
Confidence = 0#